I had a rush of excitement counting down the days of graduation. Going through this semester knowing it was my last semester was refreshing and surreal. I had already taken a part-time position in my field during my last semester at Jewelry Television. I would go to class everyday and then work a 8 hour shift at JTV. I would get off at midnight from that job and rush home to get ready to work in the admissions office on campus at 8 a.m. Life became routine and I never had any time for myself. I was always working or doing school work and graduation could not come any sooner!
Now here I am, only a little over a month after walking across the stage, and I’m already sitting back analyzing life wishing I didn’t rush any moment of it.
As a child I always thought, “Man I can’t wait until I’m 18 years old.”
When I turned 18 I always thought, “Man I can’t wait until I’m 21.”
When I turned 21 I always thought, “I cannot wait to graduate.”
Now here I am, a current graduate wishing that I never rushed each chapter in life. Instead, I wished that I lived in each and every moment enjoying the ups and downs.
Some may call me crazy but life after graduation is culture shock. I walked on a Friday and moved into my new apartment the very next day. From that point on I am now constantly concerned about my future and what the next step is going to be.
As a student, that is your job. Of course we all have different grinds in between coursework but our main goal in school is to graduate. Once that goal is met it is about your career and your future.
I honestly broke down the day after my graduation because I was extremely overwhelmed that life hit me so fast. People will say, “Malak, you already have a job in your field and you are doing a lot better than a lot of people.” But I’m disappointed in myself. I imagined myself living in New York City, or California chasing my dreams. I didn’t want to still be in city I had been living in. My dreams are so much bigger than the things I’m comfortable with. My dreams scare me.
I took a step back and reminded myself of one thing: God is in control. My plan may not align with God’s plan and that’s okay. Everything happens for a reason and God will place you exactly where you need to be.
So sit back, enjoy the ride and trust God through it all.