Take Over The World

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Mama, I made it! 150 hours, and two majors later I finally graduated from the University of Tennessee.

I had a rush of excitement counting down the days of graduation. Going through this semester knowing it was my last semester was refreshing and surreal. I had already taken a part-time position in my field during my last semester at Jewelry Television. I would go to class everyday and then work a 8 hour shift at JTV. I would get off at midnight from that job and rush home to get ready to work in the admissions office on campus at 8 a.m. Life became routine and I never had any time for myself. I was always working or doing school work and graduation could not come any sooner!

Now here I am, only a little over a month after walking across the stage, and I’m already sitting back analyzing life wishing I didn’t rush any moment of it.

As a child I always thought, “Man I can’t wait until I’m 18 years old.”

When I turned 18 I always thought, “Man I can’t wait until I’m 21.”

When I turned 21 I always thought, “I cannot wait to graduate.”

Now here I am, a current graduate wishing that I never rushed each chapter in life. Instead, I wished that I lived in each and every moment enjoying the ups and downs.

Some may call me crazy but life after graduation is culture shock. I walked on a Friday and moved into my new apartment the very next day. From that point on I am now constantly concerned about my future and what the next step is going to be.

As a student, that is your job. Of course we all have different grinds in between coursework but our main goal in school is to graduate. Once that goal is met it is about your career and your future.

I honestly broke down the day after my graduation because I was extremely overwhelmed that life hit me so fast. People will say, “Malak, you already have a job in your field and you are doing a lot better than a lot of people.” But I’m disappointed in myself. I imagined myself living in New York City, or California chasing my dreams. I didn’t want to still be in city I had been living in. My dreams are so much bigger than the things I’m comfortable with. My dreams scare me.

I took a step back and reminded myself of one thing: God is in control. My plan may not align with God’s plan and that’s okay. Everything happens for a reason and God will place you exactly where you need to be.

So sit back, enjoy the ride and trust God through it all.

8 comments on “Take Over The World”

  1. Briana Reply

    Your hard work will definitely pay off! I’ve been having the same problem with working and knowing that my dreams are way bigger than what I imagined myself doing but staying focused and working as hard as we are will get us to where we’re supposed to be! I needed to see this

  2. Chris Dillard Reply

    This is great perspective and it’s exactly how I felt as well when I first graduated. The bible says to be anxious for nothing and I learned that the hard way. I was applying for jobs way out of my field because I felt I was ready for big job roles. However, I ended up becoming a manager at a Pizza Hut store. Looking back this was the greatest thing that could have happened to me! Also remember that on the way to success you will experience failure. Oprah was fired from her job at 23. So keep grinding toward to your purpose! Remember that God is in control and he has a way of redirecting your plans into the plans he had already in store for you which far exceeds our expectations. You have to be open to receive the blessings and you must obey for them to manifest. Stay in the word. There’s a lesson in every testimony, but you first must be tested. God bless!

  3. Derrick Thompson Reply

    I really enjoyed reading this. I can definitely relate. When I first graduated I had my mind set on where I wanted to live, how much I wanted to make, what I wanted to do etc. I learned that once I entered the real world I was basically a freshman all over again and I had to earn my stripes. Often times you want to take the world by storm not realizing you have to embrace the process and have faith that your time will come. You have to be patient while persistently pursuing your dreams.

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